I’m coming off some horrible pill that my dr decided to prescribe me and completely changed my personality, gave me headaches and plateaued my weight loss for two weeks.

Really fun.

No I mean like super awesome as in I took a bunch of shit earlier hoping to pass out for a couple hours to cure a headache and hate for the world.

I woke up at 11pm. Fuck. I’m annoyed that I didn’t set an alarm and I’m sure someone will email me or call me in a hour to tell me to take down this blog. Or within a day. I’m not writing anything against anyone just, ahem, sending out the wrong message.

Guess I’ll wake up early tmr and get shit done? I’ll be lurking Manhattan so be on the lookout.

I don’t know if I’m going upstate this weekend. It looks like I have to tie up strings instead of ride horses.

After the jump more on why I’m a horrible girlfriend and lonley and the fact that I want skateboarding lessons.

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Photos by Daze.

Last July I lost one of my best friends to suicide, another was in a car accident, I was still dealing with the life of being an ex junkie….and on top of this my laptop was stolen by my crackhead and I lost all my money and wallet at the time when I was mugged, I also had my purse with my new ipod etc stolen. It was than I learned that material possessions are so little compared to life.

The purse has been mailed to my parents house with all my cards, [expensive] makeup in it - the ipod was gone but I was just going to give it away. Frog ran into someone who brought my laptop for $50 tonight - I possibly might be able to get back some files that mean a lot to me - pictures of my friend and I before she died, my family vacation in Ireland - though that’s more for my mother than anything. I’ve found closure with my friends death, realizing the happiness she may of found now that she never did in life. My other friend turned out to be someone I didn’t think she was and she broke my heart…not nearly as hard as my friend who died did but close.

Everything comes full circle.

I value being clean of cocaine, and the love I have from my true friends and family. As well as the opportunities and perspectives I have gained through my experiences.

I’m thankful to be able to live in the city of my dreams and to have a future and the ability to leave behind my past.

I just want anyone going through a hard time to know….it always gets better

Always.

Just tough it out.

God bless.

xoxo

Sinead