• I spent the morning of the 24 puking for about eight hours straight due to food poisoning. Family came over for dinner and I almost passed out during desert. Awesome!
• My mother gave me a coffee maker. I do not drink coffee[avid tea drinker] but she brought it so that when she comes to my apartment she can drink coffee. Apparently the thing of instant coffee I keep around isn’t good enough. It’s kind of hilarious in  a way I suppose..
• On the other hand I got some ill gifts - a shit ton of nozzles for spray painting from my brother and a le tigre dress I had my eye on and told my mother. The way that thing hugs my body without being revealing - dammmmn girl.
• And my gifts were well loved - I brought my mom an assortment of nice lotions that she would probably kill me if she knew how much I spent on them. Only the best of the best for Mommy though!
• Also Pee Wee Herman - no wonder I’m so fucking gay. GAY GAY GAY. I’m sorry. I’m just loving the word Gay lately. You know what todays secret word of the day is? GAY. You know what you do when I say GAY. SCREAM. GAY AHHHHHH.
• I want to smuggle my parents cat Tippy home because he is so overweight and awesome but every time they catch me bagging him they yell at me. But seriously he’s just like a giant cuddle monster pillow.

I mean really
HOW COULD THAT NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY
Just cont on with it via YouTube - the WHOLE christmas special is there!
Yay!

B B S checking in heeeeerrrrrreeeeee.

I’m a really big Kavinsky mood tonight…no idea why.

About to head to M @ Darkroom for the first time ever - I don’t ussually go out on Mondays but I’m missing my new boyfriend too much that I’m going to go there for an hour or so just to see my beautiful wolf and melt with him.

We’ve been spending our time teaching me to skateboard - see my awesome first bruise! and cuddling lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.

I’ve also been really productive lately despite being a bit deppressed - having Wolf around defintely helps. I’m getting a lot done and writing kick ass papers and making dope art and by the way half my studio in my apartment looks like this:

Yea it’s insane….it’s really just a lot of spray paint and a tank and a graffiti and some canvases that are JUST getting started on….. oh and while I was blinging out my cats litter box I super glued my fingers together. I called Lloyd and he helped me out once I convinced him I wasn’t joking. Oh and saturday got even crazyier when I got wasted and accidentally had Graffiti party and tagged almost my whole apartment with my friend and his friend. OPPS. Like out of my mind.

I’m contemplating calling someone out via my blog. Hm.  Well see. Lets just say I don’t get this whole fucking scene queen fake ass hypocritcal bullshit about girls who pose nude and her boyfriend hitting on me explcitly as well and saying he was coming over to basically fuck me.  At least at the end of the day I’m genuine good person who has real friends. Not a millon myspace ones. At least I can rely on more than my looks and theft and manipulation to get by in life. It just hurts me to see one of my best friends being fucked over. so. bad.

/end rant. Sorry.

Nerd Girl X is launching in a few days - I’ve know Oly and Liom a long time so I’m REALLY excited about this!!!! I’m even getting a new gloomy bear to celebrate.

 Drinking water and OJ like it’s going outa style - think I might be getting sick..or working 2 hard!

PS I added on my myspace blog a page where you can copy and paste the HTML for my PORN banners! Click here if interested!  I always appreciate the support from fans <3. If anyone wants to make me some babysinead.com banners that’d be dope - I so suck at graphic design…

crazy blinking images by wolf cause he’s amazing

loves

Picture by Patrick Rood.

I saw my new therapist for the first time today.

I got in argument regarding femnism and the generalization of abuse in sex workers lives with my therapist. He told me I’m probably a waste of his time. I agree. I only went to please my mother anyways. Fucking hate people who try to psycho-analyze me. And fuck when people try to label me strong. Yea I lost three loved ones this year - and it wasn’t the easiest thing to deal with. Yea I went to rehab[still clean - thanks4akin]. But you know what I keep on living and doing what I’m doing. I have goals and I do my best to overcome the obstacles that come my way like any other person. I’m not strong, I’m just dealing with life as it comes my way like any other person. I called my mother afterwards and she said I don’t have to go to therapy.

I might just go next week to see what this douche bag can psycho-analyze out of me. I was a loner as a child and preferred to read instead of play during recess - hmmmm wonder what THAT means.

Afterwards I went to the book store and brought waaaaaaay too many book. I got Don Quixote[nostalgia? I made costumes for my HSs production of it], Striptease: The Untold History of the Girlie Show, Lobotomy: A Memoir, Beasts[an illustrated guide to mythical animals done by contemporary artists] and two books on psychology. I also picked up the new issues of PREEN and ReadyMade.

My bed i just like I like - 1/2 it for me to sleep and cuddle with Fungi. the other 1/2 litter with books, nail polish, journals, writing instruments and a thong here and there.

No need for a boyfriend or god forbid - husband.

Things you should all check out:

• Cicatrix - the personal web site of a women who models and performs showcasing her beauty despite her burn scars which the social norm might find unattractive. Truly inspiring.
• Merlin Bronques lost his camera. My guess is follow a train of disregarded clothes and the sounds of giggling girl and you’ll probably find it.
• All the BET and MTV I watched a kid clearly fucked me up.
• Gossip Girl - BEST GUILTY PLEASURE EVER! The martini count on Jezebel is the cherry on top.
• I am boderline broke lately - please hire me to do your dirty work.

I’m going to have a glass of wine and go to bed.