And now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

These were taken the day before I left for La La land:

To see them bigger and better just click the image.

xoxo

EDIT One of these photos was put in the showcase on OMP! Wooo!

Please note that as a 20 year old financially independent adult if you want to press charges against me…the people involved are me, you and my lawyer.

My parents, my brother, my family have nothing to do with pressing charges against me so please stop harassing them before I have to take action. I know you like to go after them because they are sacred and mean the world to me but please be educated, and mature when taking legal action not petty. My family is aware of the life I lead and is aware of when I have been in legal trouble before - just because I rarely mention them on this blog[except to rave about how awesome they are] does not mean they’re in the dark about my life.

Also please educate yourself on legal terms before you start sputtering them out of your mouth.

I’m never giving out my family home number ever again. Even if I’m staying there without my cell, obviously I can’t trust people not to exploit my family and respect their privacy.

In other news check out my AWESOME hair and makeup for the shoot today:

Peace!

I created a little page for my modeling and performing - right here. It’s under construction but check it anyways.

Also I just signed up with Hardcore Modeling which considering Model Mayhems lack of tolerance towards erotica/porn might turn out to be a worthwhile site. We’ll see.

I’m still hurt by my loss of my friendship with Yumna. She was the one I could alway confide in without worry about being judged or exploited. She was always the friend I shared everything in my life with, the good the bad, I wanted her there always. To not have her has created a hole in my heart.

I’m working through it though. I brought some new plants, and had a mini shopping spree at Lush….em nice yummy bath bomb filled bath times always make me feel better. I really need one of those vibrator rubber duckies already!!! oh and I got an acid wash black hoodie from AA.
None the less…I’m still heartbroken.

Photo by the Lovely Brenda.

I was going to write about weird kinks, how fucking AWESOME my Mom is, and the rubbing of ze taint but um I’m in bed, naked and ready to pass out.

So here are some new pics of me courtesy of Daze:

And that’s my bedroom btw. And yeah it always looks like that. Infact this is a fairly accurate representation of how I am right now. The big pink dildo is here, gloomy bears, fur blanket Just don’t have the hat on but you know what, maybe I should start wearing caps naked in bed on the regular.

I’ve been super busy lately and it’s not dying down anytime soon.

Poor Fungi, named not for the plural form of fungus but rather the killer Irish dolphin of Dingle, Fungie, I really must play with her more…

Um and you know what. My MOM IS AWESOME. We hung out today and discussed piercings[she hates belly but thinks the nips are cool], how babies having babies is so in for 08, and brought new vans together[she got slip ons and I got high top]. Seriously I love my Mom. She’s the best. She’s going to take training to start teaching a class for people with children and loved ones suffering from mental illness. So cool.

Ok I’ll talk of taints and kinks later.

xoxo

Now that...that’s over.

Let’s get back to what this blog is about. Me. And how amazing my new office trash can is:

Oh and what’s that…MY NEW PIERCING.

I got my septum done! To celebrate not putting shit up my nose anymore…I put something through it!

Chris came and watched…it was pretty exciting because afterwards I almost passed out and actually turned PALER.

I’m really glad I got out of bed this morning. I was really depressed about everything[along with my Jimi drama last night involved a lot of reflecting the past year and the missing my friends that have passed] but once I got up and going and saw my friends and professor I was really happy.

Anyways Daze and I are shooting again next week. WOOO MORE OF THIS PLEASE:

Also I can not GET OVER Tiestos remix of Tegan & Sarahs “Back In Your Head.” I listen to it at least twice a day. And I got my paws of this jam AWHILE ago.

Also today was just a really big reminder to me about why I love life and being clean and just how stoked I am for the present and the future.

Things that annoy me:

• Less than two hours before I’m supposed to do a shoot and I haven’t been given a exact location beyond “upper west side.” How can you even expect models to be on time?
• Answered an ad for a masturbation video on CL and this is the reply I get “You do other stuff when can you come down for audition I’m in Manhattan”. No punctuation what so ever. And hello so obviously some dude trying to con girls. Fuck that. Email is jmodels2003@aol.com. Just a heads up for models.
• Accidentally overbooking myself.
• People who call from private number or phone cards. S K E T C H Y
• Basically people in general who just don’t understand how to act like a PROFESSIONAL. This goes for models too!
• DJ politics. So over it.
  

Things that don’t annoy me:

• Business dinners that go well and include delicious passion fruit mimosas and basically cement the fact that I am going to take over the world.
• Deciding not to go to a Ben Sherman party, Studio B, Trash and whatever fucking else I could of done last night that involves drinking and socializing and instead staying in reading and drinking whiskey with Fungi.
• Spinach. I’m on a real kick lately. It’s the vegetable of vegetables.
• Having a straw shaped like a penis.
• Collaborations with talented people.
• That I’m going to shoot a erotica portfolio for school.
• Getting laid.

Tell me whats annoying and not annoying you.

I did cricket crushing video yesterday!

It was actually pretty fun and kind of stress reliving to talk down to them and crush them. I do find the crunch noise of them being smooshed a bit icky.

If any of my fellow fetish models are interested in doing this - contact me. I’ll hook you up with the job[$].

I’m going to DC next week for some performance art of sort at a club…uh it’s hard to explain and I’m not really supposed to talk about it. I’ll post the flyer when we get closer to the week.

I am not looking forward to school starting next week. Ugh.

Going to sleazy sex stores by yourself is an experiance if you’re an attractive young girl.  Men hit on you, or just look at you strangely and with hungry sexual eyes. The salesmen are always the sweetest though, sometimes even cutting you a deal. Anyways went shopping last night - got some new lingerie, an Andrew Blake dvd, and a vibrating cock ring mostly because the packaging was awesome:

Ok guys. I’m out - come see me at Trash tonight - I want lots of dollars in my pussy!

Happy Friday!

• I spent the morning of the 24 puking for about eight hours straight due to food poisoning. Family came over for dinner and I almost passed out during desert. Awesome!
• My mother gave me a coffee maker. I do not drink coffee[avid tea drinker] but she brought it so that when she comes to my apartment she can drink coffee. Apparently the thing of instant coffee I keep around isn’t good enough. It’s kind of hilarious in  a way I suppose..
• On the other hand I got some ill gifts - a shit ton of nozzles for spray painting from my brother and a le tigre dress I had my eye on and told my mother. The way that thing hugs my body without being revealing - dammmmn girl.
• And my gifts were well loved - I brought my mom an assortment of nice lotions that she would probably kill me if she knew how much I spent on them. Only the best of the best for Mommy though!
• Also Pee Wee Herman - no wonder I’m so fucking gay. GAY GAY GAY. I’m sorry. I’m just loving the word Gay lately. You know what todays secret word of the day is? GAY. You know what you do when I say GAY. SCREAM. GAY AHHHHHH.
• I want to smuggle my parents cat Tippy home because he is so overweight and awesome but every time they catch me bagging him they yell at me. But seriously he’s just like a giant cuddle monster pillow.

I mean really
HOW COULD THAT NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY
Just cont on with it via YouTube - the WHOLE christmas special is there!
Yay!

In one of those rash decision sort of things I like to do I cut my hair off. I don’t know…ugh maybe once I get it bleached and cleaned up things will be ill again. Unfourtantly I’m not going to have time to get my hair done till after the 7th.

I’ll be upstate Westchester till the eve of the 25. One day to get my shit together in NYC on the 26. Than 27 - 4 - Fl, near Miami so give me a hollar if you want to chill with my girl Yumna and I. Than I get back and two straight days shooting with Burning Angel. Also going to Baltimore to shoot on the 13th.

I’ve been in a hermit rut lately and have barely seen any of my people. I miss you all but I’m just not feeling social. Hopefully I snap out of it after Fl.

I’m doing my first soft bondage shoot tmr. Woo ropes and stuff:

aye aye aye

We shot together last night. It was a blast.

We discovered I have a talent for balancing things on my nose:

Also made this comparison:

fauxoroid:

Heart balloons are the greatest thing everrrr:

as are turtlenecks:

And I’m a princess:

I have packages waiting for me at the post office. I’m excited. My boyfriend got me a bouquet of flowers and they’re beautiful like him.