These are from a shoot I did last fall with Brenda for a graffiti documentary. Brenda shoots a lot of girls naked against graffiti around Brooklyn[most notably Burning Angel] and they wanted to see that. Artist Faro also got in on the action - painting an amazing mummy on a rooftop for the shoot.

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 I think I’m going to the dr tommorow about my knee. Last night it hurt too much to go out and I missed the Burning Angel party and was also supposed to stop by a Red Bull sponsored event. But I stayed in icing it. It’s still swollen after two weeks so I guess this a bad look. Ugh, I hate doctors though!

I’m redesigning this blog so if anyone has ideas - tell me! The content is staying the same but we’re upping our design game.

Yup the office wall graff game is officially over. I know have solid blue and green walls with hot pink trim. I think I’m gonna make a wall in the apt the official graffiti wall that won’t get painted over. Just tagged over and over again.

I also have curtains and a curtain rod thanks to Frog:

You should all listen to his mix for east village radio. DL here.

So Jimi breaks up with Raquel and starts texting me that he misses me and shit today. And that him and Jefree Star have banned together and I should join them.

WTF?

First off I never took down any of my blogs - they’re all right here - and why would I want to be friends with someone who threatened my family? And gave my parents phone number out?

Do people think I’m stupid…because I’m not. You can not play me.  I can smell bullshit a mile away.

Also I’m happy now to have let negative people out of my life and I’m not about to let them back in.

I’m in a good place and I’m very happy, I have a lot of great stuff going on and coming up in my life…my past needs to stay in the past. And people have to stop thinking you can play me, I’m smarter than I come off.

More here 

I created a little page for my modeling and performing - right here. It’s under construction but check it anyways.

Also I just signed up with Hardcore Modeling which considering Model Mayhems lack of tolerance towards erotica/porn might turn out to be a worthwhile site. We’ll see.

I’m still hurt by my loss of my friendship with Yumna. She was the one I could alway confide in without worry about being judged or exploited. She was always the friend I shared everything in my life with, the good the bad, I wanted her there always. To not have her has created a hole in my heart.

I’m working through it though. I brought some new plants, and had a mini shopping spree at Lush….em nice yummy bath bomb filled bath times always make me feel better. I really need one of those vibrator rubber duckies already!!! oh and I got an acid wash black hoodie from AA.
None the less…I’m still heartbroken.

Photo by the Lovely Brenda.

There was a man outside my apt handing out condoms yesterday. “Free condoms, protect yourself, if not for you for your loved ones. Protect yourself from stds.”

I wish girls weren’t such stupid cunts. Seriously the majority of women I meet are such followers and so afraid to be themselves it’s incredibly disheartening. I don’t know I need to go to the Box or something and get out of this girl hating rut.

I want to paint over the wall on the other side of my office so bad but I have so many memories attached to it that it seems impossible. I think I want to shoot a couple girls in front of it than do a masturbation video in front of it..maybe than I will be ready to let go. I’m planning on making it into a mini library so the walls will be covered anyways. Maybe I should just designate a tagging wall in the apartment.
It is obscenely warm in NYC today. OBSCENE.

• I spent the morning of the 24 puking for about eight hours straight due to food poisoning. Family came over for dinner and I almost passed out during desert. Awesome!
• My mother gave me a coffee maker. I do not drink coffee[avid tea drinker] but she brought it so that when she comes to my apartment she can drink coffee. Apparently the thing of instant coffee I keep around isn’t good enough. It’s kind of hilarious in  a way I suppose..
• On the other hand I got some ill gifts - a shit ton of nozzles for spray painting from my brother and a le tigre dress I had my eye on and told my mother. The way that thing hugs my body without being revealing - dammmmn girl.
• And my gifts were well loved - I brought my mom an assortment of nice lotions that she would probably kill me if she knew how much I spent on them. Only the best of the best for Mommy though!
• Also Pee Wee Herman - no wonder I’m so fucking gay. GAY GAY GAY. I’m sorry. I’m just loving the word Gay lately. You know what todays secret word of the day is? GAY. You know what you do when I say GAY. SCREAM. GAY AHHHHHH.
• I want to smuggle my parents cat Tippy home because he is so overweight and awesome but every time they catch me bagging him they yell at me. But seriously he’s just like a giant cuddle monster pillow.

I mean really
HOW COULD THAT NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY
Just cont on with it via YouTube - the WHOLE christmas special is there!
Yay!

I broke my TV. I’m in the process of gutting it - something I’ve dreamed of doing to a television for years. Have you ever swung a hammer at a TV screen….and actually hit it?

I’m turning it into art or something I suppose. Some pictures and eventually just a part of my apartment which is essentially a giant work of art, where I think it’s going to become an end table/cat mansion / seat / portal. 13” Hello Kitty TV/DVD combos are only $140 so I think I’ll get one eventually when I have money. I’m still waiting for my rare Hello Kitty vibrator I got on ebay to arrive. I’m serious. For now my macbook is handling my net flix account.

I’m getting better or skateboarding. In love.

BATTLE CAT - BATTLE

Pictures of my apartment:

Click them to see larger. Yea my apartment got pretty insane after that accidental graffiti party. Big D and Wolf cleaned my chalkboard and I’m covering up A LOT of it but keeping some yet with all the crazy decorating I’m doing in the coming months my apartment will still be nuts. I’m just trying to keep it cleaner.

My baaaaby. And my baaaaaby and Big D after darkroom getting ready to smoke.

Wolf and I went to see the Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D and drank a bottle of whiskey. This was when we got home and smoked and after this I passed out in my Lala leotard. Probably the best Halloween ever. I really hate the crowds of obnoxious people. I almost had an anxiety attack walking by myself on 7th avenue on Halloween night. Wolf gave me a skateboard for Halloween:

I love it. He finger painted it. Its amazing. I’m getting better at skating. I think I need to just spend a hardcore set of time practicing.

Oh and my Aunt sent me a card the other day with pictures of me from when I rode horses with her and my cousin in Ireland…here is one of them:

Lovin my life