I think I’m going to the dr tommorow about my knee. Last night it hurt too much to go out and I missed the Burning Angel party and was also supposed to stop by a Red Bull sponsored event. But I stayed in icing it. It’s still swollen after two weeks so I guess this a bad look. Ugh, I hate doctors though!

I’m redesigning this blog so if anyone has ideas - tell me! The content is staying the same but we’re upping our design game.

Yup the office wall graff game is officially over. I know have solid blue and green walls with hot pink trim. I think I’m gonna make a wall in the apt the official graffiti wall that won’t get painted over. Just tagged over and over again.

I also have curtains and a curtain rod thanks to Frog:

You should all listen to his mix for east village radio. DL here.

So Jimi breaks up with Raquel and starts texting me that he misses me and shit today. And that him and Jefree Star have banned together and I should join them.

WTF?

First off I never took down any of my blogs - they’re all right here - and why would I want to be friends with someone who threatened my family? And gave my parents phone number out?

Do people think I’m stupid…because I’m not. You can not play me.  I can smell bullshit a mile away.

Also I’m happy now to have let negative people out of my life and I’m not about to let them back in.

I’m in a good place and I’m very happy, I have a lot of great stuff going on and coming up in my life…my past needs to stay in the past. And people have to stop thinking you can play me, I’m smarter than I come off.

Thank you Rivika for introducing me to “web-cam-stop-motion-thing.“

Post yours in the comments!!!

Day One:

Land in LAX - my blackberry was crackberrying out and not turning on so it took me awhile to reach her and get picked up from the airport. Kelly Lind shot three solo sets of me which was really fun - he’s a great photographer. Joanna and I shot a set and video together which involves not only a Burning Angel sex toy but also a toilet plunger as a butt plug. The thing is though Joannas toilet plunger mysteriously looks like a butt plug. I’m going to be hitting up Bed Bath & Beyond for one ASAP.

Day Two:

I shot my first ever boy girl scene and interracial although I think it’s weird that people won’t fuck black guys. That first interracial scenes are considered something special or a big deal weirds me out. Where do you draw the line of between fetishism and racism? So I’m glad my first one was interracial so it’s never a big deal. The guy had a really cute mohawk and we shot in Joanna’s closet[which is the size of some of my friends bedrooms in NYC]. The closet is awesome - neon green with a robot on the wall.

Joanna cooked an insane feast and Tommy Pistol and his wife came over to eat with us. The food was soooo good, I haven’t had a home cooked meal in forever!

Day Three:

I got my makeup and hair done all awesome as you all saw here. Also I wore a red latex dress - did you know you can use lube to clean latex and make it look nice? Learn something new everyday. I did a scene in this amazing art loft in East LA with Mick Blue - who officially has the best accent ever and totally gets into the scene. The members at Burning Angel all think that our guys aren’t “punk rock” enough. And I’ve decided that if you all don’t approve of Mick that I’m not talking to you. For like a day. But seriously he’s so hot and fucks way better than the majority of hipster boys…sorry hipster boys…I still love you, lets go listen to Morrissey and wear glasses without lenses while reading Vice.

After dinner I got to watch the first half of Fuck Me in The Bathroom TWO - it hasn’t been released yet but let me tell you…when it is - buy it. Not just for the sex but for the hilarious interviews.

Day Four:

I was going to wake up and watch the second half of FMINB2 but I slept in instead. We went to Beauty Bar LA to shoot. I got amazing hair and makeup done - think Blondie with a beehive. Took awesome pictures and than had really fucking good sex with Alex in the mens bathroom. The scene was very hot. Actually all my scenes were and I can’t wait to see them.

We had dinner at some bar and everyone was loud, wearing green and drinking green beer.

When we got home I went on my email than James walked in with a video camera and I ended up going down on him with Joanna and than filming her getting fucked in the ass by him.

We went to Tonga Bar, a tiki bar to celebrate St Patricks day. The drinks were free and I got kind of drunk. Oh and I made a new gay bestfriend!

When we got home I was pretty drunk apparently. James apparenlty told me to go under the cabinets and I did but I was so drunk and confused…I didn’t even remember this till James told me.

Ok I have to add this in since it’s hilarious, it’s from Joannas blog:

“I listened to nothing but the Dropkick Murphy’s on St.Patricks day and at night me and Sinead went to some tiki bar and drank things that were green. I am not irish but Sinead is. She taught me the meaning of St.Patricks day. It turns out it isn’t just about getting drunk and dressing in a green outfit, it’s also about snakes. See Patrick apparently- who wasn’t even Irish… he was Scottish or British no one even really knows- he drove the snakes out of Ireland. Apparently there used to be a lot of like, poisonous snakes there but there isn’t anymore. I guess that’s just as good of a reason to get drunk as anything else is. Sinead also told me that sometimes Irish baby’s get taken away and replaced with wooden sticks and when she was younger she tried to arrange for this kinda thing with her brother but it didn’t really work. It was pretty educational. I have a whole new respect for Irish people. Next st.Patty’s day I’m gonna go to Boston with Sinead. I look as far from Irish as you can possibly look but I don’t think anyone will care. Do you?”

Day Five:

Went on Sirrus radio with Joanna, we were on Tony Hawks radio station for the Jason Ellis show. I helped Joanna give the illusionist a hand job and than cum on my tits to makeup for not promoting Jason at AVN. It was kind of hilarious because Joanna was trying to video tape it but broke the camera and left the room. So I’m sitting there on my crackberry and bullshitting and the guy is gonna cum so I texted her “He’s gonna cum!!!” And she came back to the bathroom and he came on my tits.

Finished up packing than did Joannas webcam show with her. It was lots of fun, I stuck a finger in her butt and her fans are really sweet.

I filled out all my paperwork, and Joanna gave me a Burning Angel sex toy and Not Another Porn Movie. The Burning Angel bullet is really good. And I’m not usually a bullet girl but the vibrations are killer and the pink cracked design seals the deal. Oh and it’s water proof and phalate free!

We headed to the airport a bit tight on time but we thought I might make the flight but I accidentally got dropped off at Virgin Atlantic instead of Virgin America. Than I was given the wrong directions to America three times before I finally got there. There was so much running and dragging my insane amount of bags around that I was frantic and stressed beyond belief when I reached the ticket counter. I ran through security[not even bothering to put my sneaks back on, through the gates, the vendors till I got to my gate. Where I subsequently collapsed in front of the counter - partially in pain since my knee is still fucked up, and partially because I was anxious and have never missed a flight before. Ever. Fourtantly the kindess of strangers, Virgin Airline and Joanna all were incredibly helpful and sweet. A perfect stranger gave me ibuprofen and water and offered me a place to stay in DC if I was stuck there. The women was very sweet and checked on me a couple times. Things like that give me faith in people and reaffirm my belief in karma. I got a flight to DC and all the flight attendants were incredibly sweet since they had seen how upset I was - I was even given my own row of seats to myself…which if you know me, I love that.

Actually I love Virgin. It’s so cute. With their purple and hot pink lights, silly video, good air plane food…loves it.

The DC airport is really big. And security was worse than NYC. They spent a solid five minutes staring at my bags. Although now I’m looking back and realizing I have some weird shit in my carry on.

I think my cab ride home from the airport took more time than my flight from DC to NYC. I keep falling asleep in the cab[it was raining, I’m tired and cars put me to sleep = bad combo] and the guy DROVE INTO MANHATTAN. I live in Brooklyn!? WTFFFF $70 CAB RIDE. That’s ridiculous.

Now I’m back in nyc and it’s time for a shower, and some much needed Fungi and me time.

Everything I shot while I was out here will end up on Burning Angel, & Joanna Angel. So join those sites and get your hands ready.

I created a little page for my modeling and performing - right here. It’s under construction but check it anyways.

Also I just signed up with Hardcore Modeling which considering Model Mayhems lack of tolerance towards erotica/porn might turn out to be a worthwhile site. We’ll see.

I’m still hurt by my loss of my friendship with Yumna. She was the one I could alway confide in without worry about being judged or exploited. She was always the friend I shared everything in my life with, the good the bad, I wanted her there always. To not have her has created a hole in my heart.

I’m working through it though. I brought some new plants, and had a mini shopping spree at Lush….em nice yummy bath bomb filled bath times always make me feel better. I really need one of those vibrator rubber duckies already!!! oh and I got an acid wash black hoodie from AA.
None the less…I’m still heartbroken.

Photo by the Lovely Brenda.

• I spent the morning of the 24 puking for about eight hours straight due to food poisoning. Family came over for dinner and I almost passed out during desert. Awesome!
• My mother gave me a coffee maker. I do not drink coffee[avid tea drinker] but she brought it so that when she comes to my apartment she can drink coffee. Apparently the thing of instant coffee I keep around isn’t good enough. It’s kind of hilarious in  a way I suppose..
• On the other hand I got some ill gifts - a shit ton of nozzles for spray painting from my brother and a le tigre dress I had my eye on and told my mother. The way that thing hugs my body without being revealing - dammmmn girl.
• And my gifts were well loved - I brought my mom an assortment of nice lotions that she would probably kill me if she knew how much I spent on them. Only the best of the best for Mommy though!
• Also Pee Wee Herman - no wonder I’m so fucking gay. GAY GAY GAY. I’m sorry. I’m just loving the word Gay lately. You know what todays secret word of the day is? GAY. You know what you do when I say GAY. SCREAM. GAY AHHHHHH.
• I want to smuggle my parents cat Tippy home because he is so overweight and awesome but every time they catch me bagging him they yell at me. But seriously he’s just like a giant cuddle monster pillow.

I mean really
HOW COULD THAT NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY
Just cont on with it via YouTube - the WHOLE christmas special is there!
Yay!

I’ve made new friends lately.

I’m totally in love with my friend at this gift store by my doctor off Park Avenue. He just leads me around the gift store and than finally we cuddle by his scratching post and I say good bye. He’s a good sales person because I’m totally going to have to buy gift wrap or streamers there now.
Gift Store Cats > Bodega Cats

Wolf <3

I’m enamored.

This is a video from the other night of me interviewing people about the flavor of asshole. It really just prove that Jessie Lee is super cute and Mitch only wears flannel. In fact please sign up for Burning Angel to support Mitchs flannel habit. If he ever runs out he’ll have to leave the porn business and join the logging business which despite their simmilarities - it’s just not the same.

Also I’m digging the new Bloc Party video:

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