Everything comes full circle
Photos by Daze.
Last July I lost one of my best friends to suicide, another was in a car accident, I was still dealing with the life of being an ex junkie….and on top of this my laptop was stolen by my crackhead and I lost all my money and wallet at the time when I was mugged, I also had my purse with my new ipod etc stolen. It was than I learned that material possessions are so little compared to life.
The purse has been mailed to my parents house with all my cards, [expensive] makeup in it - the ipod was gone but I was just going to give it away. Frog ran into someone who brought my laptop for $50 tonight - I possibly might be able to get back some files that mean a lot to me - pictures of my friend and I before she died, my family vacation in Ireland - though that’s more for my mother than anything. I’ve found closure with my friends death, realizing the happiness she may of found now that she never did in life. My other friend turned out to be someone I didn’t think she was and she broke my heart…not nearly as hard as my friend who died did but close.
Everything comes full circle.
I value being clean of cocaine, and the love I have from my true friends and family. As well as the opportunities and perspectives I have gained through my experiences.
I’m thankful to be able to live in the city of my dreams and to have a future and the ability to leave behind my past.
I just want anyone going through a hard time to know….it always gets better
Always.
Just tough it out.
God bless.
xoxo
Sinead
May 13th, 2008 at 3:50 am
recently ive been goin through alot of different bullshit. i figured it all though, cuz yo…it could always be worse…i could be on fire.
May 13th, 2008 at 4:30 am
I don’t comment here ever, but I read often.
It does get better. It doesn’t always get easier, but it does always get better.
Glad you’re clean, finding closure, and that there are people there to love you. Beautiful stuff.
May 13th, 2008 at 5:45 am
So appropriate you posted this right now; I was goin through some totally shitty circumstances, then everything suddenly like shifted and got better. I dunno. I also realized too how different my life is compared to a year ago. Its so strange from going to wanting to die then jump to the excitement to live…
Anyhow, I’m just rambling. But congrats on being and staying clean and things turning up.
xo
May 13th, 2008 at 5:45 am
So appropriate you posted this right now; I was goin through some totally shitty circumstances, then everything suddenly like shifted and got better. I dunno. I also realized too how different my life is compared to a year ago. Its so strange from going to wanting to die then jump to the excitement of living…
Anyhow, I’m just rambling. But congrats on being and staying clean and things turning up.
xo
May 13th, 2008 at 6:52 am
Thank you for that. Being clean (I’m not 100% but Im not extreme) is always the best, and as much as you can go through a shit time with friends and ex-friends, things always get better. If its not good, its not the end.
May 13th, 2008 at 2:49 pm
I just want anyone going through a hard time to know….it always gets better
as someone who has gone through a shitty year, i totally appreciate that
May 13th, 2008 at 2:49 pm
real deep…. i cant enphasize how much life kicks people down but thats the thing about it though you will always still come out swinging and stay up. its always a battle you know?…. and being clean and not going crazy after all thats happend … thats realy admirable