I think there comes a point in everyones life where you either decide that you are going to live up to everyone elses standards or your own.

That point came for me around the time I turned 20. I realized than I had different goals, morals, idea and aspirations about life than most people. The only way I will ever be satisfied with my life is if I live it on my own terms. The majority will always prefer to conform to others expectations but this has never worked for me. I have always beat to the sound of my own drummer. I care what people think of me, no one can say their are without that though but at the end of the day what I think of me is what matters most.

So people who send me emails, messages, comments etc questioning things like my carreer in pornography or body modifications or what do my parents think…I just always wonder - whose standards are you living your life to?

If my tattoo limits my opportunities I will make them for myself. Although I’m an impulsive person at times - I recognize that this is permanent and it’s something I thought about for over a year. When I was in High School I was told having hot pink hair would limit my job opportunities but I went and applied for a part time job at a conservative store just fine.

The only thing that seems to limit me in life is not being myself…since I have stayed true to myself opportunities and adventures seem endless.

A big reason I’ve ended friendships since I’ve gotten clean besides drug issues is people who are not true to themselves and consistently trying to conform or manipulate themselves to be what they’re not.

Most people spend their life trying to conform to other peoples standards.

Most people are not happy.