Trash last night with Christ was fun. The crowd is kind of weird…like people who don’t understand that if someone who works at the club asks you to move because people are receiving bottle service in a certain area…you do. You don’t sit there and make the bouncer remove you. Also lots of “professionals”, random people in suits, weekend warriors, and like way too many Moby impersonators. The fact that they have burlesque every week is fucking awesome though. And I go to Trash for the people who work it and its like home so I deal.

Today I worked for the artist Ho Chang on his project and recreating classical biblical paintings into photographic digital masterpieces. Here’s an idea of what he’s doing[one of his finished works]:

Pretty awesome. I got to pretend to be Jesus, Mary, soldiers, weeping women. It was an awesome excersice of using my body and face to express a multitude of emotions. And I got to model with Apathy! I had no idea, really awesome surprise to find out your modeling with a friend.

Afterwards I went shopping - I got a hot pink translucent rain coat, a anatomy coloring book, a carnelian, new yoga mat…lots of other things.

In other news this week is just full of people overreacting and becoming PSYCHOTIC with me. I’m not going out tonight, I’m staying in and doing yoga and reading. I need to r e l a x.

For example this young man, Seth was sending me myspace messages wanting to date and help me with my website. I actually humored him regarding a date[I love to meet new people!] but I’ve been too busy. Anyways he says he wants to work on my pay site[despite me having people on this already] and I ask him what he can bring to the table. This is what he sends me:

“myspace. com/neworder2008
myspace. com/iampharmaceutical”

Now what I’m seeing here are poorly designed myspace flyers that a. violate terms of myspace b look shitty on most browsers and c are just not aestically pleasing. So um what do I need this for? I have a nice looking myspace, and I think it’s pretty obvious to anyone who reads this blog I’m more into porn and modeling not nightlife - and as far as nightlife goes I have more contacts in it than I fucking need seriously. So I reply to him…maybe a bit too honest but whatever as we all know that is Baby Sineads style. HONEST

.

Um what? Ok. Still what are you to me? I mean really.

Also he sends me texts:

“Fuck you you stupid little twat”

I respond to this with a simple “No need to be rude asshole” and he responds:

“You don’t know what you’re talking about. I guess you like myspace pages with ads and garbage. I got 500 rsvps for my party. so my shit works for someone”

O rly? I have friends who get thousands of rsvps for their parties.

Also I am not working for Lazerbunny because they won’t pay me for getting naked. I don’t get naked for free.

Seriously though…when it comes to irrational people and me … it’s like I’m a magnet. Chris made me put away my phone last night because all my texts were just people being assholes[buried underneath them were texts of congratulations from friends on my sobriety and funny things people send me:)].

Dear Moby,

Why were there 5 of you at Trash last night?

When did you clone yourself and set out to take over the LES?

xoxo Gossip Girl

PS ILU AMY EVEN IF YOU DO HAWK MICROSOFT PRODUCTS

Ironic considering I’m wearing an Alumni shirt. Whatever. I take it off fast enough thank god. DON’T BUY IM SO NYC SHIRTS. DON’T SUPPORT A COMPANY RUN BY A PSYCHO. In case your forgot that he is fucking out his face and a douche bag - click here. Don’t support him and his shitty girlfriend.

My favorites:

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xoxo GOSSIP GIRL

One of my boobs looks bigger than the other here. Weird! That’s my foot in a condom. Weird! That’s a ten inch pink dildo. Not weird!

Anyways back to what this blog is about - Baby Sinead, Fungi, Fucked up Sexual Experiences, Adult Entertainment Industry, NYC Nightlife, how AWESOME I AM.

I have the illest Spanish teacher and am becoming a Lazer Bunny.

Also I’m setting up to do a scene with this guy.

I think he’s pretty hot.

PS expect a super awesome blog redesign soon

PS I’m doing a bondage shoot tmr and than having my slave clean the house. Maybe even paint my toe nails.

Just a reminder this blog is about me.

Oh thai food + ginger ale + water = hangover CURED

first college spanish class tonight! yay!

FROG IS KILLING IT RIGHT NOW:

DADDY YOU ARE NUMBER ONE

Now that...that’s over.

Let’s get back to what this blog is about. Me. And how amazing my new office trash can is:

Oh and what’s that…MY NEW PIERCING.

I got my septum done! To celebrate not putting shit up my nose anymore…I put something through it!

Chris came and watched…it was pretty exciting because afterwards I almost passed out and actually turned PALER.

I’m really glad I got out of bed this morning. I was really depressed about everything[along with my Jimi drama last night involved a lot of reflecting the past year and the missing my friends that have passed] but once I got up and going and saw my friends and professor I was really happy.

Anyways Daze and I are shooting again next week. WOOO MORE OF THIS PLEASE:

Also I can not GET OVER Tiestos remix of Tegan & Sarahs “Back In Your Head.” I listen to it at least twice a day. And I got my paws of this jam AWHILE ago.

Also today was just a really big reminder to me about why I love life and being clean and just how stoked I am for the present and the future.

So one year to this day I made a commitment to facing my addiction to cocaine, seeking help, and never again putting that shit up my nose. It’s been a rough years mostly of downs but with a few ups one being what sobriety has granted me…such as being able to separate my true friends from the rest, being able to focus on my school, art and career more seriously, and confront my demons and no longer run from them.

To this day I’ve had one friend die from drug use and another friend whos drug use most defintally contributed to her eventual suicide. I’ve had multiple friends overdose and almost die.

Despite being off cocaine for a year I still have to deal with medical and mental issues that stem mostly from my usage. I lost a year to my life. The year I was addicted to cocaine I barely did anything except party or get high.

To my loved ones, my friends, strangers who read this blog, who still put this drug up your nose[or ass, or inject or smoke it] I ask that you take a serious look at what you’re doing.

“With chronic cocaine intake, brain cells functionally adapt (respond) to strong imbalances of transmitter levels in order to compensate extremes. So receptors disappear from or reappear on the cell surface, resulting more or less in an “off” or “working mode” respectively, or they change their susceptibility for binding partners (ligands) – mechanisms called down-/upregulation. Chronic cocaine use leads to a DAT upregulation, further contributing to depressed mood states. Finally, a loss of vesicular monoamine transporters, neurofilament proteins, and other morphological changes appear to indicate a long term damage of dopamine neurons.

All these effects contribute to the rise in an abuser’s tolerance thus requiring a larger dosage to achieve the same effect. The lack of normal amounts of serotonin and dopamine in the brain is the cause of the dysphoria and depression felt after the initial high. The diagnostic criteria for cocaine withdrawal is characterized by a dysphoric mood, fatigue, unpleasant dreams, insomnia or hypersomnia, E.D., increased appetite, psychomotor retardation or agitation, and anxiety.

Cocaine abuse also has multiple physical health consequences. It is associated with a lifetime risk of heart attack that is seven times that of non-users. During the hour after cocaine is used, heart attack risk rises 24-fold.

Side effects from chronic smoking of cocaine include chest pain, lung trauma, shortness of breath, sore throat, hoarse voice, dyspnea, and an aching, flu-like syndrome. A common misconception is that the smoking of cocaine chemically breaks down tooth enamel and causes tooth decay. However, cocaine does often cause involuntary tooth grinding, known as bruxism, which can deteriorate tooth enamel and lead to gingivitis[citation needed].

Chronic intranasal usage can degrade the cartilage separating the nostrils (the septum nasi), leading eventually to its complete disappearance. Due to the absorption of the cocaine from cocaine hydrochloride, the remaining hydrochloride forms a dilute hydrochloric acid.[1]

Cocaine may also greatly increase this risk of developing rare autoimmune or connective tissue diseases such as lupus, Goodpasture’s disease, vasculitis, glomerulonephritis, Stevens-Johnson syndrome and other diseases.[12][13][14][15] It can also cause a wide array of kidney diseases and renal failure.[16][17] While these conditions are normally found in chronic use they can also be caused by short term exposure in susceptible individuals.

There have been published studies[citation needed] reporting that cocaine causes changes in the frontal lobe of the brain. The full extent of possible brain deterioration from cocaine use is not known.”

Seriously people…why are you still doing cocaine? Why can’t we party without it?

Doesn’t it seem a bit pathetic to only be able to party with addictive illegal substance?

Also keep in mind by supporting your local drug dealer your supporting more than just some asshole who divides up coke and baby aspirin into baggies for a living…you’re supporting addictions, illegal activity, violence, wars that are responsible for the deaths of innocent men and women…

PS I’ve been crying a lot of happy tears since last night.

This week I will create amazing images, go skateboarding, make money, spend quality time with Fungi, get the house cleaned, make love to myself, read at least one hour a day, get external hard drives, work on learning imovie, continue listening to emo and house music just because that’s the kick I’m on.

Time for my sunday night bath.

xo

Things that annoy me:

• Less than two hours before I’m supposed to do a shoot and I haven’t been given a exact location beyond “upper west side.” How can you even expect models to be on time?
• Answered an ad for a masturbation video on CL and this is the reply I get “You do other stuff when can you come down for audition I’m in Manhattan”. No punctuation what so ever. And hello so obviously some dude trying to con girls. Fuck that. Email is jmodels2003@aol.com. Just a heads up for models.
• Accidentally overbooking myself.
• People who call from private number or phone cards. S K E T C H Y
• Basically people in general who just don’t understand how to act like a PROFESSIONAL. This goes for models too!
• DJ politics. So over it.
  

Things that don’t annoy me:

• Business dinners that go well and include delicious passion fruit mimosas and basically cement the fact that I am going to take over the world.
• Deciding not to go to a Ben Sherman party, Studio B, Trash and whatever fucking else I could of done last night that involves drinking and socializing and instead staying in reading and drinking whiskey with Fungi.
• Spinach. I’m on a real kick lately. It’s the vegetable of vegetables.
• Having a straw shaped like a penis.
• Collaborations with talented people.
• That I’m going to shoot a erotica portfolio for school.
• Getting laid.

Tell me whats annoying and not annoying you.

Slutty picture of me by the talented Daze.

I just got back from DC … it was pretty fun.

Getting there involved insanity with Bushwick cab service[who im never calling again] and signing for a strap on dildo via ups as I was walking out the door.

The party was all right…wasn’t as crazy as we would like - but next time. Anyways Davidan has the lock down on vitamins. For real, before him I had never chewed a chewable. He’s pretty crazy and amazing like me so it’s good hahahaha.

I really like DC - it’s a really beautiful city with so much history to it despite not being around that long. I think I’ll have to find a reason to go back. [Anyone wanna bring me down for modeling or performing ;)?]

Also made a new friend - Nikolas Schiller - he makes these insane maps…they look even better in person. Click it to see it bigger and BETTER.

Seriously if you don’t check his stuff out I’ll never pose naked on the internet ever again.hahaha

He also taught me about boob slapping. I think this is something that needs to be brought to nyc. [along with naked twister]
Also people are insane…I don’t check my email for a few days[no internet while away natch] and I get so many paranoid are you ignoring me messages!!! Trust me people, when I ignore you, you know I’m ignoring you. I actually have a messenger pigeon tell you.

Bad photo bloggers? Can you just stop… It’s just SO ANNOYING. Seriously if you can’t light or FOCUS properly don’t act like your anything more than a kid in the bar taking pics of his friends[ie don’t ask me to “pose” for shit or watermark you shitty pictures]. Yea, I’m being a bitch here but after being a student of photography for many years and being friends with people who actually know what they’re doing….it’s almost insulting to see these party photographer posers.

I’m going to start reviewing sex toys soon via a video blog. It should be a fun little side project. I’m almost overwhelmed by how many sex toys I own now. It still isn’t enough though! And the majority of pink. I’m such a girl sometimes.

Anyways Starla did a picture of me[and my ball gag!]:

Cute, right? If you wanna see more of her stuff - check it out here.

Anyways I’m going to drink whiskey, catch up on my reading and probably masturbate. I’m not even horny. I just need to test out sex toys for the good of human kind.