Picture by Patrick Rood.

I saw my new therapist for the first time today.

I got in argument regarding femnism and the generalization of abuse in sex workers lives with my therapist. He told me I’m probably a waste of his time. I agree. I only went to please my mother anyways. Fucking hate people who try to psycho-analyze me. And fuck when people try to label me strong. Yea I lost three loved ones this year - and it wasn’t the easiest thing to deal with. Yea I went to rehab[still clean - thanks4akin]. But you know what I keep on living and doing what I’m doing. I have goals and I do my best to overcome the obstacles that come my way like any other person. I’m not strong, I’m just dealing with life as it comes my way like any other person. I called my mother afterwards and she said I don’t have to go to therapy.

I might just go next week to see what this douche bag can psycho-analyze out of me. I was a loner as a child and preferred to read instead of play during recess - hmmmm wonder what THAT means.

Afterwards I went to the book store and brought waaaaaaay too many book. I got Don Quixote[nostalgia? I made costumes for my HSs production of it], Striptease: The Untold History of the Girlie Show, Lobotomy: A Memoir, Beasts[an illustrated guide to mythical animals done by contemporary artists] and two books on psychology. I also picked up the new issues of PREEN and ReadyMade.

My bed i just like I like - 1/2 it for me to sleep and cuddle with Fungi. the other 1/2 litter with books, nail polish, journals, writing instruments and a thong here and there.

No need for a boyfriend or god forbid - husband.

Things you should all check out:

  • Cicatrix - the personal web site of a women who models and performs showcasing her beauty despite her burn scars which the social norm might find unattractive. Truly inspiring.
  • Merlin Bronques lost his camera. My guess is follow a train of disregarded clothes and the sounds of giggling girl and you’ll probably find it.
  • All the BET and MTV I watched a kid clearly fucked me up.
  • Gossip Girl - BEST GUILTY PLEASURE EVER! The martini count on Jezebel is the cherry on top.
  • I am boderline broke lately - please hire me to do your dirty work.

I’m going to have a glass of wine and go to bed.