First things first. Today is Olivas and Is two year anniversary of know each other. I am honoring it with this picture of us at MoFo 2005:

M at Darkroom was more packed than I thought. When ever I look at pictures of it I think “gee that party looks dead.” It really isn’t though.

The first that happened when I walked in before I took off my coat, before I approached the bar and found my baby was some stupid typical [hopefully new to NYC] hipster girl[I DON’T FUCKING KNOW] asked me if I sold weed.

DRUG LESSON ONE

Never buy drugs from strangers. Why? A. They might rip you off HARDCORE and you will be smoking grass that cows eat and snorting baby lax for real. B. Or you might get really fucked over and overdose because they give you something to fuck with you[there are bad people out there….I’ve been around the drug block a lot and have watch dealers do shit for fun..its fucked but it happens. C. They might be a narc. It’s rare but it happens. You fucking idiot.

But I had fun sitting by the bar dribbling[drunk + scribbling] and than eventually taking a..uh nap at Darkroom. I got to meet all my Wolfs friends. Big D told me I look like Tinkerbells cousin and I said he looks like Santa Clauses cousin. Brendon James and Sarah Lee said hi and I showed them pictures of me riding a horse.

I’ve taken a lot of naps in clubs and bars around NYC. I passed out in the Green Room[with that fabulous rain forest wallpaper] at Happy Valley one night after go-go-ing, I was made to take a nap in the room above the dj booth above riffi [not there anymore - we’re talking pre-renovation] because I showed up so wasted after a cupcake party with Bronques, I passed out in Misshapes due to a roofie, I’ve taken naps at lit while waiting to get paid, I took a nap while waiting for Johnny Love in the basement of Hiro and almost got kicked out…

And than theres all those times I’ve passed out on random peoples apts, subways, parks, restaurants, and even kind of broke into an apartment. Maybe this is why Frog is one of my Daddies. He falls asleep a lot too.

I mean I’m just really tired guys. Ever since I quit coke I have to drink a lot of red bull to stay awake and I’m really big on naps.

This is Wolf and I in costumes:

We are tissue dander. CLEARLY.

Happy Halloween! Be safe kids! Do the thizzle dance!

B B S checking in heeeeerrrrrreeeeee.

I’m a really big Kavinsky mood tonight…no idea why.

About to head to M @ Darkroom for the first time ever - I don’t ussually go out on Mondays but I’m missing my new boyfriend too much that I’m going to go there for an hour or so just to see my beautiful wolf and melt with him.

We’ve been spending our time teaching me to skateboard - see my awesome first bruise! and cuddling lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.

I’ve also been really productive lately despite being a bit deppressed - having Wolf around defintely helps. I’m getting a lot done and writing kick ass papers and making dope art and by the way half my studio in my apartment looks like this:

Yea it’s insane….it’s really just a lot of spray paint and a tank and a graffiti and some canvases that are JUST getting started on….. oh and while I was blinging out my cats litter box I super glued my fingers together. I called Lloyd and he helped me out once I convinced him I wasn’t joking. Oh and saturday got even crazyier when I got wasted and accidentally had Graffiti party and tagged almost my whole apartment with my friend and his friend. OPPS. Like out of my mind.

I’m contemplating calling someone out via my blog. Hm.  Well see. Lets just say I don’t get this whole fucking scene queen fake ass hypocritcal bullshit about girls who pose nude and her boyfriend hitting on me explcitly as well and saying he was coming over to basically fuck me.  At least at the end of the day I’m genuine good person who has real friends. Not a millon myspace ones. At least I can rely on more than my looks and theft and manipulation to get by in life. It just hurts me to see one of my best friends being fucked over. so. bad.

/end rant. Sorry.

Nerd Girl X is launching in a few days - I’ve know Oly and Liom a long time so I’m REALLY excited about this!!!! I’m even getting a new gloomy bear to celebrate.

 Drinking water and OJ like it’s going outa style - think I might be getting sick..or working 2 hard!

PS I added on my myspace blog a page where you can copy and paste the HTML for my PORN banners! Click here if interested!  I always appreciate the support from fans <3. If anyone wants to make me some babysinead.com banners that’d be dope - I so suck at graphic design…

crazy blinking images by wolf cause he’s amazing

loves

All right. I just had a new Burning Angel set uploaded and I am so excited because I’ve been waiting for it to go up forever.

It’s always been a big fantasy of mine to do a wet t-shirt set[ no NOT A FUCKING CONTEST - gross! ]. In fact I hope to get to do more soon because I had so much fun doing this one. I think Matt[the photographer] did too when he wasn’t worried about getting shocked.

I really do want to do more sets like this so if anyone wants to put Baby in a wet t-shirt hit me up on my recently redesigned myspace.

I love my boobs. And check out my fucking hot camel toe. To see me finger fuck myself joinng Burning Angel and see the rest.

This set totally reminded me that I need to take a shower!

Oh and I started to learn to skateboard - I fell a couple times but I’m aight at it. I’ll get better. I can’t wait to be good enough to use skating to get everywhere and get a cute board. I<3 my Wolf BTW.

JOIN BURNING ANGEL !

PS Drama Queen Hitler shirt by Alumni NYC

I’ve made new friends lately.

I’m totally in love with my friend at this gift store by my doctor off Park Avenue. He just leads me around the gift store and than finally we cuddle by his scratching post and I say good bye. He’s a good sales person because I’m totally going to have to buy gift wrap or streamers there now.
Gift Store Cats > Bodega Cats

Wolf <3

I’m enamored.

This is a video from the other night of me interviewing people about the flavor of asshole. It really just prove that Jessie Lee is super cute and Mitch only wears flannel. In fact please sign up for Burning Angel to support Mitchs flannel habit. If he ever runs out he’ll have to leave the porn business and join the logging business which despite their simmilarities - it’s just not the same.

Also I’m digging the new Bloc Party video:

Fall into …

This is life.
I’m fucking
bored
broke
horny.
I’m going to watch a screening of the XXXorcist in Park Slope with my Burning Angel homies tomorrow - if you want to join me it’s at 10pm at Lucky 13 Salon[273 13th st].

Also my better half - Yumna - started a blog, you can read it here.

I’m lonely lately, doesn’t help that everyone seems too busy or in another state/country for me.

Ok so I’ve always been a voyeur and an exhibitionist…and a total MOTHERFUCKING PERVERT. I started watching porn before I lost my virginity[in fact I think I got off to porn more when I was 15 than I do now] and my hobby of finding porn has gone from looking for quality[hot girls and hot boys] to more LETS SEE HOW MUCH FUCKED UP SHIT I CAN FIND IN PORN. I’ve watched man insert his entering bald head into a womens vagina, giant vaginas and dicks, dinosaur & godzilla porn, goatse like porn, robots etc etc…

but my favorite is the ET Porn:

Essentially it’s a Spanish porn where a female ET gets fucked by people in 18th century costumes - it vaguely reminds me of Alice in Wonderland in some scenes. ET never really seems that into it for some reason. She probably just wanted to phone home and all these fucking weirdos wanted to fuck her.

I’ve yet to find the full complete porn[if you know where I can purchase it - I’ll love you forever!!!], but here are three clips:

• ET fingers a blond
• ET gets her box eaten
• ET gets fucked by the mad hatter

Anyways if anyone has more clips or the entire porn hit me up at babysinead@gmail.com

And in other news I’m like really horny despite being beyond stressed out so if you’re hot and want to have no strings attached safe sex with me - hit up my email. I’m only slightly kidding.

Picture by Patrick Rood.

I saw my new therapist for the first time today.

I got in argument regarding femnism and the generalization of abuse in sex workers lives with my therapist. He told me I’m probably a waste of his time. I agree. I only went to please my mother anyways. Fucking hate people who try to psycho-analyze me. And fuck when people try to label me strong. Yea I lost three loved ones this year - and it wasn’t the easiest thing to deal with. Yea I went to rehab[still clean - thanks4akin]. But you know what I keep on living and doing what I’m doing. I have goals and I do my best to overcome the obstacles that come my way like any other person. I’m not strong, I’m just dealing with life as it comes my way like any other person. I called my mother afterwards and she said I don’t have to go to therapy.

I might just go next week to see what this douche bag can psycho-analyze out of me. I was a loner as a child and preferred to read instead of play during recess - hmmmm wonder what THAT means.

Afterwards I went to the book store and brought waaaaaaay too many book. I got Don Quixote[nostalgia? I made costumes for my HSs production of it], Striptease: The Untold History of the Girlie Show, Lobotomy: A Memoir, Beasts[an illustrated guide to mythical animals done by contemporary artists] and two books on psychology. I also picked up the new issues of PREEN and ReadyMade.

My bed i just like I like - 1/2 it for me to sleep and cuddle with Fungi. the other 1/2 litter with books, nail polish, journals, writing instruments and a thong here and there.

No need for a boyfriend or god forbid - husband.

Things you should all check out:

• Cicatrix - the personal web site of a women who models and performs showcasing her beauty despite her burn scars which the social norm might find unattractive. Truly inspiring.
• Merlin Bronques lost his camera. My guess is follow a train of disregarded clothes and the sounds of giggling girl and you’ll probably find it.
• All the BET and MTV I watched a kid clearly fucked me up.
• Gossip Girl - BEST GUILTY PLEASURE EVER! The martini count on Jezebel is the cherry on top.
• I am boderline broke lately - please hire me to do your dirty work.

I’m going to have a glass of wine and go to bed.

- Sarah Lee is now 21 / 15 ! I think a bottle of Olde English may or may not been stolen last night. Not that I know anything regarding this. Dances With White Girls and Andy Pry love tacos. People should pay them in tacos for DJ-ing.

- Kid Sister and The Cool Kids at hiro - good show. Thanks Daddy!!!! And that’s that for my CMJ week. Sorrry I need to spend time with my family and doing school work not seeing mostly average bands and getting drunk.

- I went to 205 - I knew no one but Lloyd. Best thing written at 2am and drunk “club 205 is andy warhol meets walmart.” Somewhat sober I still stand by this. I also drew some hilarious awful ballpoint crazy abstract figure studies. This is what happens when you’re a little bored and on clonapin.

-Waking up still drunk at 830 am S U C K S . I have to see my therapist for the first time ever at 1030 - HOW BAD IS THIS. I have to convince someone I’m not that crazy but I’m slightly inebriated. Why did I let my mom talk me into this?! Also my chemical burn eye is acting up and is red and I look stoned. And I have sooooo many errand to run after this!!! oh god I’m totally taking a nap in the park, homeless style. WHATEVER.

- I got a message via Myspace saying they’d like to be reincarnated as my cat. I feel bad for Fungi lately because I’m never home to play and cuddle. : / I think when I get her neutered I ‘m getting her a Tarina Tarantino collar. I like this one best[in purple], or because it’s a bit cheaper and she might tolerate it more - this one in pink.

- Why do I get so many myspace friend requests from DJs in LA? Where are all of you finding me? I don’t live in LA! Weird. Honestly all my friend requests are LA DJS, underage girls or old men. What does this mean?

- Saturdays suck. I overslept and had anxiety attack today. Had lunch with Laura and came home to cuddle my cat. Overslept again was almost late to work. Now I’m home. Drinking and catching up on Heros while my neighbors blast shitty music. And blogging. This is lame.

- Frog says my blog makes me look like I only have 4 friends: him, Yumna, Fungi and dick. I assure you dear readers….I have more than 4. It’s more like 6 1/2.

- A man streaks through Time Sq and feels its necessary to defend himself by saying I AM NOT A HIPSTER. [full story here] Is streaking a hipster thing? Why are the only naked chicks in Williamsburg shooting porn? Judging by his myspace…I’d say he’s either hipster. Why is the NY post so great? I love how they covered his penis[fun sized or candy bar? we can’t figure it out now!] with an apple!!

- Top ten rap songs white people love.

- I got paid to hand out lollypops at a Haunted House tonight. And I got to go through the haunted house for free. Was pretty rad - I am so fucking jumpy and screamy haha. When I was 11years old I went to a haunted house with my brother, his friends and my dad….I was too scarred to go through so I was waiting outside with my father. A lady was running around with a chainsaw terrorizing people and when she saw my frightened face she smiled and looked me right in the eyes. I FREAKED THE FUCK OUT. And just started running as she started advancing and screaming “Come here veal…VEEEEEAAAALLL VEEEEAAAALLL I’m going to get you!!” It was pretty traumatizing and embarrassing all at once. I haven’t eaten veal since.

- I did a porn shoot with Brenda for a graf doc on Friday. Brenda has been shooting porn against graffiti for awhile. The shoot was really awesome and we worked with this great artist - Faro. He paints really dope mummies - the work he did while I was there is on a roof in Williamsburg - you can see it while your going across the bridge. …heres some images:

I hate saturday nights.

x o