because my freckles are multiplying and getting darker. Yet I am whiter than ever.

I kept trying to scratch some dirt of my face before and then realized it was a freckle. This isn’t the first time I’ve done that either…

I won the Hot Body contest @ Rated X this weekend.  I left work early because I’d made a good amount of money and Ultra was hosting. For some reason I decided that I could win if I wore my backpack the whole time. So I got naked but kept the backpack on. The other contestents performed oral sex on eachother. I said I had lost my homework.

$100.

I’m on some weird backpack kick right now. I’m really thinking I should pick up the Fafi for Lesportsac one.

Backpacks are just so fucking gold.

And that’s Ariel on the Mckibben rooftop for my portfolio that never was…

I have a couple more from this shoot that I liked, I should get them up! But first I need to deal with the Alumni shoot.

Supposed to be at Porn 4 Peace tonight but I’ve been feeling so ill all day that I didn’t go. Of course now that it’s 2am I kind of feel better. Sucks, I had been looking forward to it for awhile, I hope it went well.

Yesterday I did a shoot for afoot fetish website. Foot fetish is weird. It’s just weird. I love it. But it’s weird. Like did I really just get paid to pour whipped cream on my feet? Well…yea I did. It was totally fun and I got to shoot with the adorable Celia/Stellar which was the cherry on the big toe.

Then I headed over to the Chelsea Hotel[one of my favorites…] to do a shoot for Fatal Beauty. It’s kind of a story line sort of shoot, pictures of me doing my makeup, smoking on the balcony, then in the cab and then a bunch of me at annex. The photographer sent me some, so here are some teasers:

There’s a bunch more. And my boobs look nice…

get memberships at Fatal Beauty and you’ll see the whole series eventually.

Boyfriend shall be here soon….and then bed time.

xo

The video interview I did with the Teddybears is up on Spin.com. It’s pretty cute, you get to hear my talk and giggle. a lot. I swear I really don’t giggle at every little thing in real life.

Anyways …

I go go ed Trash on Friday. It was fun, DJ Jess was on vacay or something, so it A2 - English & Malfunction. It didn’t get too crowded though. I ended up leaving around 3am, forgot my bottoms and walked to the skinny to see my boyfriend.

My sleeping patterns are awful lately. I really don’t ever feel like going to bed till around six or seven am.

My boyfriend is really sweet and you should all go to his party LEWD @ Annex every Tuesday. I think it’s the after party for Spankrock this week…

Heres the video: [thanks Carlos for the technical help]

I should be asleep right now…I will in a bit, I suppose. It’s 2am by the time I’m through my tea and combing craigslist for jobs and creeps it should be 3, maybe almost 4am.

Sometimes I have periods where I start having bizarre dreams. So bizarre that I can’t always seperate reality from what is not reality. I’ve literally walked around my apartment for thirty minutes half dreaming half waking in the past…it’s weird. My dreams aren’t far out shit involving Russian royalty, I will dream up buying a sandwich at the bodega and open the fridge later in the day wondering why it isn’t there. I will conversations with people and then wonder why they don’t remember them. Maybe I don’t do enough living during the day so I am over compensating.

The other afternoon I dreamt that I had a German boyfriend and he didn’t speak English so we communicated by him dancing to Hot Chip, I found this throughly distressing and woke in a sweat wondering what the fuck was going on.

Listening to Hot Chip will never be the same for me…

California wasn’t too bad once I got away from Gods Girls. I was really stressed out the whole time since I flew out there for n o t h i n g but I made the best of a bad situation.

I saw Benny Benassi live…which totally reminded me of high school and a certain someone I lost a few months ago…it was good none the less though.
Daniel somehow got me backstage for Justice which was totally amazing. Everyone was screaming and it was awesome.

On Saturday night when we got back to the hotel Andy Rourke of The Smiths was hanging out outside and we ended up partying with him till five in the morning. He got me wasted, told me hilarious stories of his ex-girlfriend, Morrissey, and taught me dance moves by the pool.

I INTERVIEWED THE TEDDYBEARS on Sunday when Daniel lost his voice. They wore their teddy heads the whole time and it was totally surreal. The video is going to be posted on Spin.com.

I stayed with Joanna Angel on Monday and she is the sweetest. I woke up stoned on Tuesday and left my computer in LA though.

When I got home to NYC it was 1 am and I wasn’t tired at all. So me and my luggage went straight to Annex. And then the Skinny. I got to see a bunch of my lovely friends and thanked god I was back in a land of reasonably priced public transportation.

Wednesday I head to Orchard bar becaucse Daniel, & Alex were spinning. Nobody was really and I ended up just dancing in the dj booth drinking sparks on my own at first. Some band played, I was unimpressed. Bijou came by and she’s the cutest. Frog called me at 4 in the morning and I apparently told him something was in my hair and passed out.

Last night I worked and it sucked. I’m working tonight and tomorrow - hopefully things don’t suck too bad. I need money to pay off my plane ticket and a few other things.

I also need a Fafi swiss army knife …

I can’t believe I am awake at 9am on five hours of sleep. I can’t sleep though…whaaaat is wrong with my body. I also have a killer cough and glow stick cancer eye. I need to take vitamins. And clean my apartment, it smells weird in here.

My life is amazing even when it SUCKS.

Much Love,
Baby S.